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December 11th, 2006
04:47 pm [Link]	iiiinteresting...but really not so much got a hair cut yesterday. I'm convinced life is a sick cycle carousel....yeah...kinda like the song. Current Location: matt's apartment Current Music: beatles (Leave a comment)
November 15th, 2006
08:18 pm [Link]	a wee bit of an update this entry is going to be completely bullets beucase I'm too lazy to explain everything...if you really want to know then ask...I don't mind sharing~ - My dog died last week...I cried pretty much every night last week, and couldn't really concentrate on anything.. - Last week i also had 2 exams, a paper and worked 3 shifts or my two wonderful jobs....it sucked. a lot. - becuase of everything that happened last week, I pretty much slept all weekend....it was a great weekend. - I feel very college-esque right now....I'm sitting in a coffee shop supposedly doing work on my laptop...but still studious....somewhat. - I miss home cooking...all this school food is really getting to me...NONE OF IT TASTES GOOD! - John Mayer is coming to my school!!! HOLLLLLLA!! I just need to get tickets now I think that's about it. no one reads this anymore. this is so pointless Current Location: Rao's coffee (2 comments \| Leave a comment)
October 17th, 2006
11:51 pm [Link]	I don't know what the point of all this is...but regardless I'm still writing it~ ok so everytime I come to write something here...I persuade myself that I don't have to wirte it down...let everthing jsut condure up in my head and it will all figure itself out eventually...well here I am sitting in my dorm room with not much to do really...and a comment triggered everything that kinda stirs in my head......so seeing as if I don't put it all out there i won't be able to sleep, here goes nothing. Why do people insist on pushing the people that care about them the most away?? Maybe there's a better good that you just don't know about. Maybe the right reason to push someone away is not hte fair reason. But one way or another it has to be done. WHy is it that you can try time and time again to be there for that person but they refuse to embrace your support towards them?? WHat makes people do things though they know that they shouldn't or that someone close to them or even THEY might be hurt in the end..?? It's all a big mistake and there's nothing anyone can do about it. Is life all about making mistakes time and time again?? Maybe everyone is a bigger puzzle than we think?? their a huge jigsaw puzzle with similar colors in the background making it hard to put all hte pieces in the right place. Why do people insist on keeping pieces hidden?? Is it so that htey have the honor/comfort of putting in the last piece?? maybe there are more pieces that have yet to be put together, the more I think I have it figured out the more facts are revealed and thus making the puzzle more elaborate.... Last year around this time was when a lot of different pieces of an old puzzle were being found...but not by the person who helped me start the puzzle but by others who told me about who had kept the peices hidden and what those pieces looked like. Each piece that I found seemed like another corner piece that made the rest of hte puzzle make so much more sense, all the times that I had doubted things and had been reassured that the pieces were still in the box were lies, because the pieces were really under the couch the whole time. I feel like some situations this year are all pieces to the puzzle of my life...most of them feel like oblong pieces and some don't even feel like they're in the right spot. but for now the peieces have been put down and i have to deal with the image that is somewhat visible from the minimal pieces that are there... Maybe we're never supposed to find all the pieces to this everchanging puzzle....maybe this puzzle of life nad all it's pices change day by day....or maybe this puzzle that we're living isn't really made yet and it's withthe decisions we make everyday that a new piece is made nad put into place. With the people we meet and the things we do we create our puzzle and others contribute their own pieces to the life we're supposed to live. Each person has their own puzzle to construct and it's up to them to decide on that they want their puzzle to look like. Lately it seems like the more space I give to people the more they take...like I'll let them study when they say they have to or let them take a breather from life and just be alone when they need their space, yet in return they just ditch you when it comes to other things....I don't like bombarding people with different requests or questions, so i give them their space.....yet with that space they insist on doing other things, that don't include you. Why is it that the bombarders are the ones that win in the end?? I think this is pretty much everything that's been floating inside my head recently...in a nutshell lifes not fair and people's lives, including your's are everchangnig nad there's not uch we can do about that. I'm sure there's more and I'm sure that no one want's to read all of this so this is where I'm gonna stop. one a side note...THUMBS ARE IMPORTANT!!! i think i sprained mine playing volleyball and I can hardly use it....so take care of yourselves and your thumbs....they really do come in handy in life!! Current Mood: blank Current Music: the boy belting his heart out next door (1 comment \| Leave a comment)
August 20th, 2006
11:32 pm [Link]	dum dee dum I love the beach...it's so calming and you lose all your worries in the world....it's great~ On that note the beach yesterday was great and it put me in a good mood....there was a sand sculpting contest...really cool and then me nad sheebs came home ate some sushi nad then went CANOOEING!!! lots of fun was had today I went shopping with my mumsy and bought clothes which was ofcourse a good time... so summer though wasn't anything special is ending pretty well....one and a half weeks nad I'll be back at the zoo~ Current Mood: just swell and dandy Current Music: some newer guster (Leave a comment)
August 11th, 2006
06:21 pm [Link]	oh jeeez I want my hammock. I want it not to be broken right now so I can go outside and lounge in it for the rest of the summer...... it's kinda funny how I know more about you then you think i do. there's so much we've shared that things get overlooked. Arizona state and soap. no more group of friends. have to stick to the singles. it's the only way. what's going on. Current Mood: gloomy (Leave a comment)
August 6th, 2006
05:43 pm [Link]	who knew I never thought I would NOT miss my little sister as I do right now....since she's been home all she's done is coplained and bitch at me....which I don't really take personally but still not cool. Today I painted my hallway....yes it's mine only becuase it leads to my room (along with Naris') but I'm the only one who taped off the edges nad actually painted the damn thing!! it was hot and really tiring....and as if that wasn't enough we decided to paint our TV room also becuase we are re-doing hte floors so we thought we should make the whole room look nice at once and not waste time nad energy trying to do it some other time. so in conclusion our house is a mess but when we put it back together again it'll look nice.....hopefully. so now my quads and calfs kinda ache becuase of all the squatting business and my armes from all the paint rolling and such....but all is well atleast i did something productive today. as for a social life it seems to come and go....right now it's at the go phase, but we'll see what happens....I want muskaka to come home.Eileen visits soon! that should be a good time~ all i know is that I miss school but I'm not really ready to go back, not just yet. someone pick a major....any major willl do. Current Mood: calm Current Music: ella (2 comments \| Leave a comment)
July 29th, 2006
08:48 pm [Link]	yo my sister came home today....and I'm kinda pissed.... not only did I get pretty crappy gifts...but then she ditched me for her boyfriend...so once again I'm home alone with my dad not becuseI don't have anything to do or my riends ditched me on our plans but becuse my sister who I haven't seen for a month decided that she needed to hang out with her boyfriend instaed of her sister the very first night she gets back! kinda mad...won't lie..no catching up with each other or anything like that.... sigh such is life. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: 99 Red Balloons (Leave a comment)
July 24th, 2006
10:08 pm [Link]	flustered and confused I thought i was gonna lose my dad today....and no matter how much I say I wasn't scared and that i knew everything was going to be alright...I had no idea what was going to happen as I stood in the cafe with my dad pale as can be and barely breathing in my arms.... but he's ok now. and that makes me feel a lot better...but I'm still a bit shaken up...who knows what could have happened Current Mood: scared Current Music: nothing (1 comment \| Leave a comment)
July 20th, 2006
11:07 pm [Link]	contrary to my last entry ok so last time i wrote about how this summer is really weird and nothing feels right....well that hanst cmopletely changed but somethings have changed.... FINALLY people came over to swim...and that felt normal, I'm working more seriously for my dad now so i guess that gives me some structure for my days....I think the big reason that it's felt like summer lately is becuase I'm turning slightly into a beach bum. I went to the beach all day saturday with Laura Misumi, then Sunday with my cousins, visited adam's restaurant and then went swimming tuesday nad now I'm off to the beach tomorrow....and I'm gonna try to go again sometime this weekend~ there's just something about the beach that I really enjoy. maybe it's the calmness of the waves or just the fact that you can go there and all you have to do is NOTHING! no pressure to do other stuff or anyhting like that...just sit there relax and enjoy the weather friends stuff is weird and I don't want to get into details right now....but i miss muskak and i miss my Zoomasser's A lady asked me if I was pregnant yesterday....I didn't know what to think. she said I have a pregnant glow to my face....NOT PREGNANT PEOPLE!!! NOPE! NOT ME! I don't know what else to say...kinda wish i went to Armenia...adn I also wish it was closer so I would have the option of bouncing between here and there, but we all know that can't happen... I guess that's it for now.... Current Mood: awake Current Music: random (2 comments \| Leave a comment)
July 5th, 2006
12:36 pm [Link]	what happened to summer?? Where did summer go? i feel like this summer has already gone by really really quickly and all the summer-ish things that I ususally do haven't occured yet... It's already July nad I haven't gone to maine with Widette nor have I had a bunch of people over to swim day after day after day....I haven't had long intense conversations with firends about troubles they are having or just life in general on my hammock for hours on end....I dunno what is really going on, maybe it's the craziness of constantly trying to find a job or the fact that other people all have jobs and that leaves me with nothing to do, or the fact that some of my friends decide to travel during the summer whether that be for a weekend or for a month (God knows i miss them either way). Dor some reason this summer is really different than other summers, friendships have changed, priorities have shifted....There's the world cup which has sucked many people (including yours truly) into the wonderful world of soccer...and hten there are the people who regardless of TV just want to be outside in this muggy weather. Right now, my uncle and little cousins who i haven't seen in about 6 years are here to visit and its weird to see my cousin who was 4 last time i saw her jump on me at the age of 10 out of excitement of seeing her cousin!and it's weird to see my other cousin at the crazy early teen years trying to pull off the skater boy look while being a huge soccer fan just becuase when he was younger his dad used to always tell him that I played soccer and that one day wecould be on a team together...hahaha....I love having them here!! ~I can't help but to think of what happened last year at this time.~ I don't know if anyone knows this Keane song but i think that it would fit in perfectly right now:: "everybody's changing and I don't feel the same" Current Mood: fine Current Music: Keane (1 comment \| Leave a comment)

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